Monday 10 February 2014

That feeling ...










Sometimes I get it when I run my forefinger around the rim of a glass and it makes a sound that lingers. Or when I'm out and about and I hear the sound of a train in the distance. When I put on a fresh pair of socks and turn over the cuff so that I don't have a sock mark. When I'm waiting for the kettle to boil and there's enough time to dip my banana into a small plate of salted peanuts, when my eldest is at school and I can eat nuts guilt free, because he has an allergy you see. Sometimes, it happens when I sing a song and I find I can hit that note that I couldn't before and all without going into falsetto. When I've scrubbed and moisturised my children and combed cleaned hair and prepared it samurai style ready for bed. I get it when I glance at the fresh flowers my mum buys me. I get it when I buy a film I really love and I leave it in its cellophane waiting for a perfect moment to watch it. 


I've had that feeling a lot the last few days. I started drawing again. I have a clear project in mind, it's been brewing for a quite a while. It's taken some time to get here and there has been much hunting and gathering and piecing together and now I have a story. I know how it begins and I think I know what's going to happen in the middle and the end, well, I have an inkling but we'll see. I feel excited. I'm waking up in the middle of the night and making notes kind of excited. I'm happy about this, I've missed that happy restlessness. 

Today I chose a title for the work that I have begun. Sometimes a title comes at the end after the work has evolved. This time it has come earlier, it has been stirring me and calling me. I must trust it, that feeling. Trust that it is telling me something that I need to hear.  I'm willing and I'm listening, listening out, for changes, for danger, for story. I am believing without seeing and drawing close to the warmth, to what feels like home. And when I close my eyes and darkness becomes me, I think of the lesson that I am learning, that 'The Best Songbirds Learn To Sing in the Dark'. 























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9 comments:

  1. Katy, again you move me beyond belief, I truly connect with you and that creative stirring. I'm a filmmaker (vpsarias.co.uk) but also an artist (painting my first love) but also a storyteller and that visceral pull, you have to trust it. I wish (need) to make more time for it and my blog is another creative outlet for me which takes most of my attention. I yearn to draw again, love your work, the final drawing reminded me of the hair washing you describe-my son has huge curls and made me think of him at bath time. Thanks, again, really x

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    1. Thank you, thank you Vicki! It means so much to me that you 'get' what I'm talking about! I love it when that connection happens do effortlessly! So you're another greedy creative with a finger in lots of pies. I'm so excited to hear you're a film maker, I was taking a look at vpsarias.co.uk and fantasising about possible future collaborations ;-) Here's to our mutual admiration, looking forward to more conversations x

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  2. Lovely work. I wish I was good at art but I am useless. It must be amazing to feel so passionate about something. I really envy that xxx

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    1. Thank you for stopping by! It is amazing to make art work but there's plenty of angst that accompanies the making, you're probably better off without artist angst :-)

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  3. Fabulous art - love the top piece in particular. Thanks for linking up to #AllAboutYou

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    1. Thank you! Yes, I'm about to start making more like the top image with lots of old family photos. I keep trying to leave you comments but it's not working :-(

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  4. I really love that collage with the person's head well severed or curtailed or whatever. Very powerful stuff.Linking up with #AllAboutYou

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  5. Thanks so much for stopping by! I love the immediacy of collage. I'll be posting more severed heads and the like soon!

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  6. What an exciting feeling that is Katy, I get it still from time to time, and while I don't always act on it, it thrills and delights me to just acknowledge the existence of that pull inside! I am intrigued and can't wait to see more of your amazing work xx

    Thanks for linking this to #AllAboutYou

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